I’ve been working with procrastination for a few years now, but I keep making new discoveries. About procrastination, but also about me. I just had a Eureka moment. I’ve been fooling myself for a long time.
Nice and dusty?
I used to tell myself I don’t mind a dusty house. I was convinced it was true, until we hired a cleaner. I enjoyed my clean house enormously, time and time again. I noticed I didn’t like it at all when our cleaner missed a week. My house got DIRTY! So much for my illusion that I didn’t care.
Mind over matter?
I used to tell myself that content matters a lot more to me than looks. As long as my website looked good enough, I was satisfied. That lasted until Lisa Cole from Naked Website started designing for me. I was stunned at the results. They even made me feel more professional, though my content hadn’t changed.
What was really going on…
Just now, when I saw the banner for my next free e-course, I realised: I’ve always cared. I just didn’t want to do the job. By telling myself I didn’t care, I didn’t need to deal with my task aversivesness. Or face my feeling of helplessness when it comes to images and deciding how things should look.
I’m gonna pay attention next time I tell somebody I don’t care. It may actually be something that I need to add to my to do list!
Where are you telling yourself that you don’t care? Could you be lying to yourself too?